WTF is Happening

I'm back, again!

WTF is Happening?

Let me put it this way! I've been under a lot of pressure since my wife died, the pressure to meet a lot of other peoples expectations. I can't live up to their expectations, and it has caused a lot of pressure on me, and I can't take it anymore. I'm at the point I can't do anything! I almost had a breakdown yesterday. I normally go to bed at 9 or 10 at night, but I was up to 3 this morning trying to handle what was going on.

With the help of some self-therapy, and some Youtube videos I was able to get things under control. I had to make some hard decisions, culminating in the decision to break ties with one person who is especially putting pressure on me. I also decided to turn a deaf ear to those who are being bossy,  I still need to get done those things they are bullying me about, but I'll do it on my schedule, not theirs!

So basically, I'm breaking the chains of control they've laid on me. I know what I have to do, and I appreciate any physical help they can offer, but I have to be in control. I'm making up lists of what to do when to do it, and what I expect the results to be. There's a lot of things I need physical help with. I'm handicapped, can't walk very well, and have limited strength in my right arm. I've also purchased some aids to help me move heavy things. I'm getting rid of most of my personal property, household goods, and clothing my wife had.

Our Salvation Army Family Store recently closed, but I'm going to see what St. Vincent de Paul can use. They will sometimes come and pick-up items to be donated if there's a quantity of them. I also will be checking with local churches to see if there's anything they want. Goodwill is my last option because I'd have to get my items there because they don't pick-up. And a couple of more places I just thought of: the battered women's shelter and the Salvation Army. I'll call them and see if they are interested in any clothing.

Time to close. I'll post again on Wednesday.