A discouraging week

I had a discouraging week last week. I had a terrible time focusing on what I wanted to do and in what order. Even though I write down a list of what I want to do, I couldn't seem to execute the tasks on it. I felt overwhelmed by the immensity of the tasks on the list. I'm hoping for a better week this week. Or at least a better day today.

I took some time and did a look-back at the way ADHD has affected my life. I can track what I did and how I did in the past. The bad was evident, but the good took a little more digging to find. I can see the problems with people relationships. I can talk with someone, as long as I don't know them. The ones I know I have problems relating to. The ones I don't know are like a tabula rasa, blank to my mind and I can explore all kinds of ways to talk with them. And I seem to believe that the ones I know are always judging me. It tends to make me go sit in the corner at meetings and family gatherings. There are always a few bright spots, the ones I can converse with and relate to.

The good comes in my ability to shed a new light or (of course) a new way of looking at problems. My new ideas aren't always appreciated, as non-ADHD'rs are confined to their Aristotelian ways of thinking. I seem to work in quantum leaps. I see a problem that can't be conventionally solved, and, after some thought, come up with an innovative solution that the nons have a hard time understanding. And of course, the ADHD causes me to have a hard time communicating how I came to the solution, especially when I'm put on the spot for an immediate answer.

It's Monday, and I've already gotten (with this writing) four things done on my list. I'll do my best to get the rest of the list done, if I can only decide what to do first!