I am ADHD

I am ADHD. That's a surprising statement from me. I've struggled about whether ADHD had me, or I had it. Read a very good blog post from Rick Green on the subject, and I agree with him: I am ADHD. It's an integral part of my life, I have to deal with it every day all day. The meds help, but they're no panacea. I've learned, not entirely effectively, to deal with it.

My family doesn't understand. Like my pastor, they think it's a matter of self-control. I'm fat. Everybody thinks I could lose weight if I'd just eat less and exercise. Their right, in one way. It would help, but I've tracked my weight gain back to when I started on Prozac in the eighties and it's been a one-way trip up the elevator since then. I've been trying a 2000 calorie weight loss regimen, but I haven't lost any weight so I'm going to go down to 1800. I'm not on Prozac anymore, but the replacement has the same side effect. If this 1800 calorie doesn't do it, I'll go down to a 1500 one.

I watched Hour of Power last night. It's not something I do a lot. With all their financial troubles the constant asking for money gets tiring. Of course, as I think back, they've always asked for money. Anyway, a quote from Robert Schuller was used in the sermon and it really hit home for me. the quote is “The church is the only institution that’s doing everything it can to get bad people and hurt people and lost people and lonely people to join. Never forget that the church is a hospital for sinners and not a museum for saints.” I haven't had a problem for a long time with who comes to church or what they wear, but it does bug some of our members. The old guard wants the church to stay the same. Just like a tree that has reached a comfortable size, they're happy with what they've got. But churches, like trees, do one of two things: They either grow or they die, they never stay the same. We'll see what happens.